Monthly Archives: October 2013

You know.

Speaking to you is my only answer.

Although you do not tell me,

I feel guided upon the matter.

There are words unknown to me,

feelings only that which you can see.


I know even without telling you that you can hear me.


In my sigh , you know,

every tear drop, you know,

in my smile, you know,

every frown, you know,

In my heart, you know.

Through every expression that ever shows,

I know that only you will ever really know!



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Posted by on October 24, 2013 in Uncategorized


What I learned from my mother

I learned from my mother how to find the sun through dark clouds,

A smile is a golden key used to lock bad feelings out,

I learned to put sugar in my tea and make sure it was just right, adjusted for me.

That in many a situation I can sketch it out to how it ought to be,

She taught me how to serve others whilst preserving all my dignity,

Living life without having to conform to all that uniformity,

To be strong and act with grace, for the sake of unity,

Many siblings, heated feelings that took away from the peace and harmony,

She made the force of great winds seem as soft as a falling leaf,

I learned that the struggles in life can really set you free,

Like hot coals being doused in a silent stream,

I learned that with my heart I can reach out into the unseen,

Wipe away sad tears and say what I really mean,

I learned to read the words but not only through me,

There is an ocean out there, a whole world of discovery,

Stand upright, hold hope tight,

When one door closes, another will open,

You just have to open your mind to see.

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Posted by on October 24, 2013 in Uncategorized


If you knew my child………….

If you knew my child. To start with you would not point and stare, nudge the person beside you or whisper in their ear, as although we cannot hear you, you have made it very clear.
He is my child that you look at, you are right, he is not as others appear, which is why I say to you that if only you did know him.
Through the pointing and the staring you have given me a cause, to nudge you in the right direction, show you he is human, I suppose.
I smile as I write this as through my words you will come to know that if you knew my child you would be in want of knowing so much more!!!

I have to remind myself not to be selfish and share my son, as to the majority he is actually something very new, there is a mystery that shrouds him, a blanket that leaves us wrapped in awe. I often envisage angels, invisible, surrounding him with light as they too wish he was theirs. He IS so many wonderful things. He has brought with him gifts, YES, wonderful gifts that we have been unwrapping along the way, they are gifts, non-perishable as they can only be felt without touch.
I know that he notices, I know that he knows, that he thinks and he feels, if you knew him you would know all of that too and because of that ‘YOU’ are dis-abled from a world that because of the way he is, only ‘he’ can perceive and those of us allowed to accompany him on his journey are on a specially tailored kind of boat.
Despite the pain, emotional and physical he has always been able to overcome, he is a very strong little boy, able to lift your spirits up with just a look and a beautiful smile. Even when he is not ok, knowing him makes you believe that he will be ok as through his being I am now able to see the apparent things that have always been, but were just not there. So many innumerable things become visible when you think about how ‘he’ is, the way ‘he’ is. Different, beautiful, thought provoking and most importantly Able………………… Able to make simple minds, wonder. Able to bring distant hearts, nearer. Able to connect, silent emotions. Able to inspire, desires.
Tell me how many if any of these you are ABLE to do, by just ‘being? Well he simply just ‘is’
If you knew him you would know that really he is ok. You would really actually learn to appreciate every day, which you are able, to live, to breathe, to love, to laugh, to express, to understand.
You will learn that life cannot be predicted and you have to carry on and just ‘roll with the punches’, it may be for a short while, it may even last a life time, but living with a deeper meaning, through understanding to accept what he ‘has’ to accept, no choices were given, he just is, the way he is.
If you knew him you would realise that if he can be the way he is and bring life to a feeling that is more than just maternal love, eternal love, then, I CAN, YOU CAN, accept him and see him as an extra special being, more than ME, more than YOU!.
If you would like to know him, then I would like to invite you to look, look ‘in love’ rather than shock and despair, look, look with a sense of care, smile when you look. You are even permitted to ask, ask if you dare!!!!!
I might have begun with ‘if you knew my child’ but really what I mean is ‘if ONLY you knew my child!


Posted by on October 24, 2013 in Uncategorized